University of Cincinnati

  • Healthy Hell by Nicholas Lawson

    Healthy Hell  3,000 to 8,000 words 

    It was the government, well it was the local government, well it was traci the mayor and a couple city council members but they drew up plans that they would allocate $1000 a month for a couple senior youths to oversee a small organizing program for some of the derelict young teenagers. There were kids that didn’t go to College and didn’t get jobs and she just felt like they should know each other and do some push ups and having some meetings and get something on their resume. It was really a small under taking but it required some footwork to find some people and Jill was someone that they found with some family problems and she was willing to participate so they asked her to join and now she’s in the Public Allies too. 

    The Public Allies is a friendly title for a group of people that run a branch of Americorps and Jack and Jane got their marching orders from Americorps and they sort of just watered down the orders because it was just a couple kids but they got the point and they organized the kids and got the funding from the city and wrote the reports and handled everything really they were just trying to be professional friends.

    “Report to Saint Margaret Mary Field in 15 minutes.” is what it said on my smart phone. It made a beeping noise like an amber alert. I figured I would flake. 20 minutes later I get a call on my phone that I’m missing from a drill. So I get my bag and get my swag and head over to Saint Margaret Mary Field. They just wanted to check in with us and show some authority. They figured we’d do push ups, sit ups, and squats. As people were showing up we we were getting involved in the calisthenics. I was 19 years old living with my folks not going to school they were scooping us up like we didn’t have anything to do. I blog. I play basketball at Bising Court. I don’t need to do this. So i’m doing my push ups and it’s occurring to me this has something to do with the internet. They were forming a militia and drafting local teens to be a part of it.

    “These kids started off doing nothing, we’re all they hope they have to make it into the job market.” said Steve


    “I know right. Government work.” said Jane.

    “You hear they started making love at work in secret?” said steve.

    “No.” said jane.

    “yeah . a supply of next generation condoms came out … so the spare office is the passion pit. “ Said steve.

    “Alright, duly noted.” said jane.

    “I think all the youth showed up.” said steve

    “Yeah it looks like our entire omnicon is here.” said Jane

    “The kids think we’re forming a militia? It’s what you call it it’s just scooping them up the ones that didn’t go to school or get a job yet it’s just pulling them out of themselves and getting them some experience this isn’t the end of their life and it’s not the start of it it’s just a government program i get leadership training they get job experience we help them with their resume’s and that’s that.” said steve

    Jake was standing there he wasn’t involved in too much. He wanted to know if he could go over to the play ground and work out there. Steve told him yeah man yeah man just stick around we have workout in a few minutes.

    So eight kids from the neighborhood that fit the description of needing to be in a militia were standing in a field and Jane and Steve were in charge of getting them to do their workout for the get together. 

    So Steve starts off …

    “We’re just doing jumping jacks today. So do 50 jumping jacks and then you can leave it’s a quick day. We’ll be sending you emails with the communications that get us to the next point in our development. It’s not like it raind but the weather is gloomy so we’re not really doing too much today. Next week though we’re doing smart phone photo shoots so bring your smart phone next week and we’ll be posing and taking photographs that are otherwise hard to get. We’ll be on safari posing with each other.” said Jake

    “Steve some of the kids are talking about how we’re wasting their time just having them show up to do jumping jacks.” said Jane


    “Come on kids, you’re in the same neighborhood as we are. We spend time at each other’s houses. We know each other. We went to the same school. We’re older and this is our precinct and we know you you know us. This is INTERNET MILITIA this isn’t MILITIA. We’re just keeping checking in with you and keeping you loosely organized so that if someone doe something like write a screen play there are people that can help them act it out. Or if you want help with a song or music video we can help with that too. We’re here to develop content for the internet and it’s not like it’s bootcamp.” said steve.

    “I did 30 jumping jacks. I felt lazy today.” said a girl.

    “That’s fine. The point was just to show up. This is a government program but it’s a light weight one. We have certain criteria to meet and showing up is the criteria we gave you something to do and we laid down plans to do photo shoots next time we meet. We’re just here for the fiber of the neighborhood which is you kids that your parents signed you up for this.” said jane.

    “You want to go to the pit??” said steve.

    “No. No i’m going to the pit with Steve.” said jane

    “You could go to the pit with me.” said steve

    “I know i could go to the pit with you but i’m going with steve.” said jane.

    “Fine i’ll go to the pit with michelle.” said steve.

    “You can’t go to the pit with michelle.” said Jane.

    “Why not?” said steve.

    “Because she’s going to the pit with Mike.” said jane.

    “You’re telling me i can’t pit with anyone?” said steve.

    “You got no one to pit with.” said jane.

    “This is bullshit.” said steve.

    “It’s about the kids jake.” said Jane.

    “I know i want to practice making them” said steve.

    “No jake. Not you.” said Jane.

    “That’s harsh.” said steve.

    It was 2080 and Saint Margaret Mary field was still a field and the golf course was still a golf course and North College Hill was still interested in being North College Hill to North College Hill. This was a government program brought down by the mayor’s office of NCH she had some spare change to pay some twenty somethings to help some teenagers with their online profiles.

    Jill didn’t have a smart phone. She had never had one. She was always too young to have one. She had to share her mother’s phone when she wanted a phone. 


    “Alright Jill. Go over there with Jane. We have your smart phone for you. It’s government issue. This is the new reality we have to have you in communications with us for this to work. We’ll be holding night watches where we meet in a chat room and hold group there. Just getting used to the infrastructure.” said Jane. 


    “So this is my phone now I get a phone.” said Jill.

    “You get that phone and if anything happens to it let us know.” said Jane.

    “I’m geeked it’s hard to use though like all the other guys are used to their phones i never used one before it’s still in the packaging right now. I’ll take it home and show it to my ma and let her know that the government looked out for me again.” said Jill.

    ‘Please do that that would mean a lot to us if you could spread some good cheer.” said jane

    “Alright.” said Jill.

    “Okay everyone now that we have JIll squared away and we did our exercises there’s not much else to do we’ll be meeting in the chat room soon to have our meeting and practice using a chat room but otherwise we’re done for the day.” said Steve.

    Jill didn’t have to walk far they met in North College Hill and she lived in North College Hill so she just had to walk a couple blocks to get back home. North College Hill had a couple restaurants it had a gas station it had a grocery store named Krogers and it has a lot of houses people lived in and really it was a nice place to live aside from the gun shots that happened from time to time it wasn’t too bad. 


    “Ma they gave me a phone.” said Jill.

    “Who gave you a phone?” said Laci Jill’s Mom.

    “The officer at Public Allies.” said Jill.

    “Who’s going to pay for this phone?” said Laci.

    “I am with my stipend.” said Jill.

    “You can afford to pay for a phone? You can afford to pay rent be nice if you started chipping in around here.” said Laci.

    “Ma I just graduated from high school and i got a job that pays a stipend.” said Laci.

    “That ain no real job you ain working at McDonald’s making no twenty two dollars an hour. You ain making McDonalds Money. Be good for you to get a job that pays right and has you serving people. This government thing it’s flaky it’s run by kids it’s for kids it’s nothing. It’s an expenditure it’s a waste of your time.” said Laci.

    “I like it. We’re having a meeting soon on the phones and practice being in a chat room.” said Jill.

    “LIke I said i’ma talk to your father and we’re going to see about you paying rent now that you work for the government and get that stipend.” said Laci

    Jil went into her room and reached into the draw and into the sock and around the ball of paper and grabbed her hidden sack of dro and she put it in her pocket and then she put on her skull cap with the panda ears and she walked out of her room.


    “Where do you think you’re going?” said Laci


    “I’m going out just to do some thinking , I’m really sorry.” said Jill.

    And Jill made her way 4 streets over to where Jane stayed and she went up and knocked on his door.

    The door opened and Jane was like “Hey.” 

    Jill said “hey, wanna smoke some trees?” 

    “Yeah, that’s like a special treat.” said Jane.

    “I know right. Can I come in?” said Jill.

    “Absolutely. Hey don’t mind the mess it’s just sis living.” said Jane

    “Oh you have a bean bag chair … mind if i sit there?” said Jill

    “You can sit on the bean bag chair. “ said Jane.


    “Takes me back. Hand me the serving tray.” said Jill.

    Jill began to break down the weed and she packed a bowl and lit it up.


    “Here. You can have the rest I just needed this one hit away from my folks.” said Jill.

    “What happened with your folks?” said Jane

    “Ma said I have to pay rent. It’s like she’s upset I have a job with the government.” said Jill.

    “Tell her it’s a real job it prepares you for public service and gives you some spacial awareness in life.” said Jane taking a second to hit the bowl and inhale real deep.

    “She ain hearing none of that, she’s just on her bullshit. She’ll probably forget to charge me rent too I just needed to air out and get some of this shit in my system since I can’t smoke it there I came here. I think you do good work at Public Allies I think it’s a nice program.” said Jill.

    “Thank you. I’m not actually a FIRM believer but it reaches a unique demographic youth that didn’t go to college or get jobs and that group of people can have a resume too. We’re real low key since it’s sort of a pressure draft situation that the mayor signed you all up for everyone in NCH was signed up to public allies that graduated from high school and didn’t a traditional time expenditure.” said Jane

    “Yeah maybe you could take us on a field trip to the recording studio. I’ve been working on a song.” said Jill.

    “You sing?” said Jane,

    “I try to. I put effort into singing.” said Jill.

    “We could go to Ultra Suede in Blue Ash I could take you.” said Jane.

    “That would be great i don’t have a ride.” said Jill.

    “I can take you. Yeah no problem. We’ll do it after a sesh next week. Your song is ready right?” said Jane..

    “No it’s not finished finished but when it’s done I’ll tell you and then you can take me.” said Jill.

    “Okay you let me know when it’s ready and then I’ll take you.” said Jane,

    “Let me hit that pipe one more time.” said Jill.

    “It’s got like one more hit in it but you can have it.” said Jane.

    Jill held the hold with her thumb and burnt the weed and inhaled real deep and got a good amount of weed in her system.

    “I just want to think about going to the recording studio for a while. You mind if i stay here for a couple minutes?” said Jill hitting the bowl again.

    “You’re fine. You can’t stay the night but you can camp out for a little bit.” said Jane.

    Jill started to pack the bowl again and she put the weed in her pocket she wasn’t going to smoke more than two bowls and Jane wasn’t trying to get too high but it was the kind of night where you could just tell the world was on ice it was the kind of night where parents needed you to be grown because they ain intend to have you and it was the night friends were friends even though you ain know each other so well but that was changing too.

    “Sweet.” said Jill.

    “How far along are you with your song?” said Jane.

    “I have a hook … “ said Jill.


    “What’s the hook?” said Jane.

    “I know that’s right i’m miss china white.” said Jill.

    “What are you trying to say?” said Jane.

    “I don’t know i listened to the radio the other day and just decided to write a song. I’ve written songs before but i never WROTE a song i have that hook it sounds nice when i say it and that’s all i want from a song i want it to sound nice when i say it.” said Jill.

    “Okay, you just let me know when you’re ready.” said Jane.

    “Look I think I’m going head out. Ima hit this bown one more time and then I’ma leave.” said Jill.

    “Yeah fine, I hope it works out with your parents.” said Jane.

    “It always does she just gives me the impression we need some space is all.” said Jill.

    Jane turns on the Television and Jill sits and watches it with her.


    Jill packs the bowl one more time and then sparks it and takes a real inhale and holds it holds it holds it holds it and releases. 


    “You want to hit this?” said Jill.

    “Yeah. Yeah YOU get to spark up with your leaders no one else does. We knew you in high school.” said Jane.

    “I got a long life of smoking weed ahead of me don’t I.” said Jill.

    “You got as much weed as you want to smoke.” said Jane.


    “Alright I think i’ma head back to the crib.” said Jill.

    “Cool. It was nice having you over.” said Jane.

    Jill picked up her things and headed out the door saying good bye to Jane. She was high as donkey kong and focused and she was just going to lay in her bed and go to sleep when she got home. Her folks were going to know she smoked weed but since she’s not in school, it’s legal, and she’s an adult they can’t say much. They can make her pay rent though, they can do that when she get sher check from Public Allies who just got done being a Public Ally to her as a Public Ally it’s nice ot see how people can behave and support each other. 

    She got to her house at 6923 Mearl Avenue and went on the front porch and sat down and pulled out her pipe and smoked one last bowl of weed. She just chilled out. It was a red brick house and the steps were clearly concrete and there was a little front lawn and the back yard was big and there was no tree in the backyard like there used to be. The porch swings around back and there’s a closed in patio room that they just had built. 

    Jill leaned back and inhaled and picked up her phone that’s right ther was a meeting tonight in the community room online. She picked up her phone and clicked in from the Public Allies application and the meeting was already in progress. It was a light weight meeting just really chatting but it was another compulsory duty they has as shang hai’d members of society. They were pulled into this organization since the government identified them as having too much time on their hands so they just got recruited by North College Hill Mayor’s Court. 

    “What did I miss?” typed Jill

    “Not much.” typed Jack.

    “When’s the next meeting?” typed Jill.

    “We meet next monday.” typed Jack.

    “Alright well, I’ll be there at 9am in the field on Monday but i’ma dip right now I been smoking and this is creeping me out being on the computer.” typed Jill

    “It’s creeping you out?” typed Jane.

    “Yeah, it’s uncomfortable using my smart phone at night knowing it was made my rich kids looking to make more money.” typed Jill.

    “Jill you really know how to … Jill just … just … just get out Jill … i’ll talk to you on monday.” typed Jack.

    “Cool.” typed Jill.


    And the Monday Jill fell in line with her squad at Saint Margaret Mary Field and got to work listening to the whistle and doing her push ups, squats, and jumping jacks. Jack himself was standing there knowing he had a future in the Public Allies this wasn’t it for him he had regulations to write and he had discourse to be a part of he knew that much he was reading a lot now that he was in this position leadership manuals and business essentials he was reading books like that to stay on top of his credentials as a government official. Jane was certain she was going to graduate school. She already had her Bachelor’s in Political Science which led to this and she knew she had a future as a Professor.She did most of the talking here with Public Allies she gave all the speeches and she had a good voice and she had a good demeanor and she knew she was going to succeed at graduate school. Jill wasn’t doing anything not yet she knew she just wanted to smoke weed. She was going to stay in Public Allies for another year and just do this. She might go to college and she might go get a job but she was definitely going to smoke weed. She didn’t know how else it mattered. She was so young she had a high school diploma she did well in high school and she could just put things off right now she just knew she could put things off she knew she could she knew she could design a life for herself that suited her age group. Her ma was on her about money but Public Allies SAID she could hang on another year if she wanted to do this go into junior leadership and she was just going to do that she was going to stick with this local program that was easy and she was going to put off the adult things and maybe make a right decision in her life for the first time she knew it wasn’t even that she wasn’t ready she was just having a good time smoking weed and she wanted to do that her pops smoked weed he smoked weed with her he was cool with her staying at the house he knew she was young ma was a little tense all the time because she didn’t think it was a good idea to dip out on college like that but at the same time her pops knew her weed habit and he was cool with her being young and avoiding responsibility which is what she was doing and really that’s todays story it’s the story of Jill and a snapshot of her life and the weed she smoked because she was our main character it all happened to her and because of her and this is how it is when you’re young.

  • these are verses I am putting together

    let her get in and glide with you be your bride for true like we can all get glued if you ain watch what you do next word could be something about you what you think about that tru something of a collectible in this rentable sports car Mercedes Benz classic convertible reworkable more merkable true searchable we under worded and over stated but we make our plays and that’s just how we play it

    don’t matter what you do you is you and that is true and I is me and she is she and we is we and time travel or no you is gon be you so through the throughout we can take this one out and ponder it about they just announced an ounce and twas typically a gram but today they found the foundations of the future of what we gone do for funding and my nephew just started learning running and here I am learning to write some more for the art of spectator sports is you in the audience or is you on stage how did you play which day did you make you have something to bake and typically it was you

    hit or miss hug or kiss love or diss who do you miss it’s a message in a bottle that genie rubbed trying to grant her wish of an author’s love we make a motion of our devotion to a world we see just fair it’s something that’s just coming and it’s something seemingly in the air we stand attention and direct detention towards the people that do us harm we wave affliction at people crippin or any type of harm they do we incite a violent mind state when the crime rate reaches a point that just won’t do somehow its all a test you people have no faith in God you handle your problems violently and have an urgency that is odd

    did you see in me a thing you could be were you wishing you had the history only I could perceive did you serenade yourself and wonder why you ever thought you could be this guy the kind of guy that has a website and this isn’t his first try and why lie there’s a symphony dedicated to you kind of thing you can be proud of but that evens out the G in you makes you believe you can see it too worried you’re a mongrel but I see power in you sometimes the world needs day light just wait for that eye sight to shine brighter than the moonshine we had recombine the power mind of a dollar sign you could find me episodically poetically speaking my mind it’s hard to find a dollar sign I never tried to find there’s a place we have inside of us that is hard to remember collect memories like November coming back around this year like an old friend stay friendly and we’ll be through this like it was meant to be

    but i don’t think your gynecologist can see what the problem is with your mood swings that cause me to want to give you a mood ring and we can listen to some mood music and get in the mood and do what it do because there is nothing between me and you that could change the fact that we are a duo and been down since a teen we been far and far between the sheets and what’s unique internet you changed me more than a tweak

    I’m a just write it out like I done a thousand times before i’ma just be the cliche I needed to be so that ya’ll would feel me the way I needed to be felt like I was the thunder struck lightning bolt that gave me the jolt I needed the lull I needed to see the need to be the greed inside the deed of a day I lead and ya’ll follow my seed my breathing you envelop me in love and I esoterically transform into the monster of a deity that is coming for you and we have a minute or two to think what just what’s next to and you could develop demons for me to breathe with so that we could see into a deity and cry silently while we await the monument that is coming for us all

    thank you for the memories lord God heavenly father almighty creator that oversees the world we have at large and lord God thank you for the salvation and the savings and the people and the drugs and lord for the ride this has been thank you for the elevation of the mind that came from the weed and thank you for the writing habit on the lithium and the mental health admittance’s and the trips to Europe and the the degree and the brother and the sister and the brother and the mother and the father and the dogs dog thank you for so much it’s so much to take in I don’t know what this is but its dangerous and i’m doing alright in it with your assistance lord thank you for the beautiful opportunity to be and I just assume there’s something to this that’s otherworldly and that’s you lord lord you put God in the word and for that I couldn’t be more thankful

    i’m staring at shadows hallowed orphans that defy the norm of complacency I break free of infinity and place myself in this moment I am someone that never spoke before because of a lithium dose I utter the most bullshit and speak the most Sanskrit I defy expectations you’d think me something to say I would dreams are dangerous in this plane I could manifest eternity one more day I would could I break an eye in the pursuit of making it known how much I hate not being known this loneliness begs to burden me inside a carbon fueled conundrum I am here to speak the peace that is my destiny and held down I give up and recites rhymes that don’t rhyme very well just writing no I am not on the mic to desecrate a thing would be an abomination I fathom weight because I went to school too long and now the burden lies upon me to speak existence where none of it has been before

    you got less than a second to choose the next word i see the world has it down right now you came correct so now i follow you and you don’t follow me who follow who how right now i think you the best emcee i heard amongst the facebook crowd had me putting my drip back together so that i could possibly put together some prose with a tight rope around the rhyme you so dope i had to add some flavor to the broth like a moth to the flame i came with the old school poets of cincinnati and we kept it real nasty and now i’m glad to be doing this for you to you who you you got some reels i can tell because you keep it real

    so you know you go and then you throw it all away and come back to the origin and do it all again and save the rest off the resting and you’ll be busy putting together your nest egg because you expect nothing less than the best and we caress our talents and fears and hope for nothing so clear I could be so dear there is nothing near i’m trying to be so clear you could engineer a dear Santa movement the group meant we should be sublime i’m rising through time one day at a time one hour at a time so that I can find the daylight in the masquerade that is made for people like us

    because Jesus speaks to us through ancient hieroglyphics holy writ we split at clits and rub into making a devoted passion because this sash that I wear on my sleeve is the embodiment of years of lithium treatment secrets kept in temples that we enter and speak gingerly of our nights with gin because it’s something sinful the way we sensationalize our sentiments because there’s something we witness in topiary topaz because we are hazmat hazards and I could be the wack ass bastard that thought this was all a rhyme

    somehow we’re speaking through the weakness of our situations in life I take my position I play my decision I make it through entities we had in this life I roll with the punches come when i’m fronting and destiny takes me to be the man that I am and I understand that somehow the plan is to design a place in my heart where I can find solace and love purely for the sake of love so that there is more love for the lovers of my life that are none and I speak destinies into existence from my educated fortnight I place people in places that had me doing alright and I speak lightly about problems I had once before now the issues I face are something special and hard to ignore oh won’t you fathom me there is not another one for you in storage

    spit rawness for the goddess be honest and don’t be modest as we elevate our mind state to a higher form of being we are seeing the sights we have yet to design our placements upon the decided upon fiction we were going to utter as our collective history speaking facts with diction we spit fiction nga and you spit it like facts prosaic if you took the time to write a book one time but then you need the publishing tools and we have to take into account that you are not evolved yet my fool as we spit raw tactics enacted by the facts that the discovery channel has a day dedicated to you and you subjective nature of existence leads to you being the subject most of the time because who else like you?

    because it’s so true the hue of money sticky green dew for you that needs woo on the regular Helter skelter which way do you melt her knelt before her spoke trees of her never really knew her screw her not like that but true you do what you do and we keep cool with our manifestation of the seven sovereign sins that only do less to depart just to begin as we ascend into the rafters after the beginning comes the end and again here we go with the beginnings of the end that is only in the imagination my friend you can send the letters to the bed wetters and they’ll never write back in fact they’ll just matter less than the last time they had the chance to speak

    to what end must we begin again every day we rest our head and every day we talk to friends manifesting destinies we have yet to see because we are currently at rest with ease and please if you have tease me one more time you might get what you have coming miss sublime you have patience with no virtue meaning you have no hue and you don’t really know what it is I do madam qualified you’re next to rest beside the bedside

    again we find ourselves in the plane with a destiny based in a future that we can not predict this time period leaves us weary as we strive for a world we have never seen because we place pencils to paper and fingers to keys and manifest a destiny for the collective we that seeks to live longer than the previous G something of a steal we really do this shit live long and prosper is the reality we seek to speak on topics yet unglued we have a business we can do and how long does this glue last that keeps us stuck here in the ruts here loving lust here how long do we get accidents aside what’s our projected thesis what’s the word count we need to hit to claim that we were it

    flyer than a flyer baring my name that’s right oh I just trace pictures flight scriptures I been in a plane several times i’m so hipster can you enter into the masters chambers and spell out camp creations we’re in craft rooms with popsicle sticks doing craft shit how sick is this on facebook to whit it’s a burden to be so intelligent hell bent spent on the repentance of a sentence of a Lenten scripture give me the fish and tartar sauce for the boss come watch me floss this out because I been down south and the heat drowned em out When I entered into her mouth she knew what I was about and I left a deposit so she could enjoy the rain coat I gave her middle of winter and i went with less so she should be taken care of something paid for who knows which is which all I know is my shit is legit

    when you’re buying your enemy’s CDs so that you can see into seed of their greed so that they need you to see what they see and their CD is their product that they need to move so they don’t have to put in that down time work as a clerk middle manning between you and the producer we used to this genius escapade on the way to being made got a refreshing rejuvination when I thought that wal mart took 20 years to get their first franchise and I’m writing with the whites on like it’s night songs something we right wrongs if you ain write you wrong

    if you open up and let it flow out you’ll find yourself at the beginning of some self made clout you can see for yourself what you’re really about and when you have a moment like this it affects what comes out of your mouth you might not understand the connection to the words I speak but you have to understand without powerful inputs you’ll always be weak and your language will be affected if you find yourself a cheat there’s no getting around the language or the deets

    talking about writing talking about rap talking about poems talking about vibe coding been a minute since I sat down at a work station you talking about the internet that’s fine with me that’s how you made your scratch i’ll pick up my stick and draw a line in the sand and call it a website please I got one I had one I run one I never had nothing to do jack so I might as well play the professional game I just got used to smoking weed and this is prosing from a pro and i’m just here to let ya’ll know you think I don’t know but I know couple things I never thought just one or two really did it with a boo without being blue keep working center of and i’m centered sentences around the penitence that I play for the pent house pets that I ain trying to adopt just give me my scratch pad and i’ll handle the ops

    extolling the virtues of ancient times we breath the breath of ancient lines exposing the present like pathway to rhyme you could better inflect and redirect your set to a whole new concept because your dialect ain ready yet for a whimsical medi set filled with the latest pills to give you thrills and chills as you fill your will up with words so perverse you have nothing to leave so you heave yourself into your work and go berserk and just twerk and get terse with the words you observe that agitate the nerves of your following

    put it in the bag and lets get out of here it’s a heist of epic proportions but our portions are way to small so we have to get and get out because we have a special place in our hearts for this hustle we be hustling on I can’t be independent until i get free and I’m not free until I get independent and that sounds so lonely to me we have the finest china and we have the finest china and we have china white with us she’s the finest china from China and one day when it’s all be taken away i’ma look up to the sky and say you put me here for no reason so there’s no reason I should be important i’m just a meat product with a code of conduct that is getting me noxious and it’s awful how I place myself in spaces where I date different races and you could say I say my graces and it’s a wonder i have this space to play in and you could say i’m white boy white because I write boy write and I do white boy write and I could check off a checklist of things I am good at and it would be a long list and that list is getting shorter as my life is getting shorter and I think I live forever so why should i give a fuck it’s been a minute since a woman been in my lap and I miss a woman like I need a heart attack and I could face a broke cat nap and never wake up and then this thing that I am that is me that is this chi that I exude that is my place in this space and I am right or wrong I am here for fucks sake give me a fuck because I give a fuck

    don’t like my shit don’t like none of it leave a comment dick and don’t like my shit don’t like none of it i know you sit down and play around with the underground you go to town with the clowns don’t be making no sounds you just resonate with the place and cop a plate at my place you got your mouse and your keys and best believe you fuck around on my internet you’ll run out of cheese g’s up with windows like you my kinfolk don’t choke or you’ll die and that’s an honest assessment of your life you got it goin on around this place ask for something you’ll get smacked where you taste talking about the internet where we write until then bitches get wet we get gushy with the pushy pushy of the buttons we keep bitch you the type of person that make a real nick weak don’t like my shit don’t like none of it leave a comment dick and don’t like my shit don’t like none of it yup yup all get up we got the sounds to make the underground say what’s up ah yeah whats your name you do the kind of business that make a man go insane i been there been all around I used to write like I was looking for a brand new sound now I gravitate it ain up for debate I’m telepathic and you can’t have it and that’s a fact ass crack so hit it up and smack the side of the truck young buck you fucking with a man that can teach you what it means to be out of luck so tough like it’s a rogue in this stuff you got the kind of manners that get treated so rough don’t like my shit don’t like none of it leave a comment dick and don’t like my shit don’t like none of it this has been all about how my life got flip turned upside down i had a chance to make a million but they sat me down here so now I’m just going to write and wait until the end draws near

    he ain scared of nothing but Jesus i get cuts I cant explain these lesions stigmata on my right calf it don’t matter I just quit laughing work on rhyming this year skirt a chick and become filled with fear stabbing westward hip hop not quit token and not skitz kraven i’m an old man whose seats been taken

    i’m in the mix hitting my lix driving no stick picking up chicks feeling so big i’m on my rig missing no gigs racking up giks because I changed lanes and now I stay sane words done fucked up my entire brain I got no way to find the time I could care less about the loss of a dime I got no wife to hold me down i’m just a poor motherfucker that just makes sound I’m writing music notes for anyone that cares I got a brilliant draw full of under wear it’s all a puzzle until you stop to care and then its real life in full glare can you come correct if you don’t know you got about four seconds to milk the cow you got a recollect where you put that loud so just stand back and let me explore I got nothing left so I just need me a whore we’ll get down like our parents did with no internet and no fucking kids we’ll swap spit and lately admit there’s a whole lot to this and I want to suck tits talking blue balls like you can’t believe I got Smurf condition between my knees it’s like a i know enough to get in some trouble but I don’t know if I’m ready to rumble it takes one second to change the world you just upload a masterpiece and kiss the girl she’s a soft one that likes to be touched and I’m a hard liner that doesn’t get out much i’m just out here out in the stix bout to go nuts if I don’t meet a chick it’s so hard out in the country it’s just trees and time and that’s about it you know you gotta reconnect with your lost youth because your and adult now and that’s the truth

    you could say i’m a genius or you could say i’m suicide jesus please us get back to rhyming legions obsequious in the cut like a idiot please don’t cut yourself you’ll do worse blood pressure drops quite quickly so use a band aid lady lately eighty people have been following me around online they all want to know how i did it i tell them a little bit of university and a little bit of time rhyme schemes out the asshole like a big meal feels good don’t it just let the wound heal

    i’m bout to unleash the avalanche just a cascade of a chance come spend it on me which way do you breathe you might breathe for me give me a chance to see EN EHY SEE you can believe what you want to believe the game runs deep just because I come from here don’t mean I come from here this is all I know but behind the scenes we know more than gold flow like one day be old but before that day I play plenty of play get plenty of yay slang info so cold roll into folds and crawl for dough because I take hold of a mold and churn out emcees thirty feet deep creep on sheep nigga

    what you know about a lot of thangs i got a lot of thangs that i know about you can talk about a lot of thangs but there’s a lot of thangs you won’t talk about because the world is crooked from the east to the west the television got us fucked and we covered in sweat let it be known that from here on out it’s about nothing but clout and you need to rep what you rapping about so when the place gets discussed let em know there is nothing to trust bust a bust buster and come correct mustard creating daily deals on hollywood drive i write like i live it talking i’m not trying to die the party’s over and i know it’s just about work now and i grow my flow is different how i flow because i rep that SSDI shit and i know it’s my passions and my interests that keep me busy day to day i be reading presidential literature that’s just how i play looking for a journal to light my way and get it i was looking for a fucked up wig just to split it

    ignite the fire light and recite a rhyme
    forecast the dire night and become attire
    because we’re driving right we shouldn’t be like liars
    espousing freedom sake we play with fire
    you’re so electric with it you just need a plug
    i’m so in tune with it i just need this love
    we’re so moved by it we can just stand still
    i’m your grave stone sir you’ll rest at my mill
    i’m your professor sir you’ll address as such when you speak
    it’s a wild wild world i’m tired of people like you
    might be a bad time to cheat there’s a lot of mods might be a bad time to be leet

  • See in Their Country

    Daily writing prompt
    What’s a cultural tradition from another country that you wish existed in yours?

    see in their country people respond to youth email in my country youth email is ignored

  • Op Ed

    I am i’m just curious what a 42 year old man is doing running for governor of Ohio I wasn’t around to question 43 year old barrack Obama running for president but what’s up with youth and politics I could run for Ohio house of representatives seat for district 56 up against Adam Mathews like I could do that but that would take away from my personal studies in finance building and ideology construction … look at Mike dewine you have mayor’s city council State Representatives judges and school boards why would you engender yourself with the governor at 42 years old why would you think you could do that I definitely think government is the playground of the elderly of the old of the infirmed of the aged of the wise I think as life spans are elongating youth has no real role in government at major swath positions that oversee a general leadership the wisdom of an elderly man is no match for the might of the youth the strength of Vivek ramaswamy that he showcases blatantly on a regular basis has not merit in governing a state which is done a quiet thing we could be making a large mistake voting for Vivek ramaswamy and not Amy Acton for Amy Acton has the better website she quietly makes the right decisions and is an Ohio educated leader Amy is all Ohio she’s not dirty Ohio education made up of Ohio and the east coast Vivek is a chimera of educated sorts saint Xavier Harvard and Yale that’s a great education for harvard and Yale places that are aware of Harvard and Yale performance but all we know is the reputation of Harvard and Yale and currently that reputation is playing it self out beautifully in that Vivek wants to oversee the improvement of Ohio schools to the best in the nation he wants the most competitive students and Amy Acton just wants better schools I think we should go with better schools than the best schools it’s less of a snow job

  • Chat About


    Nicholas Lawson

    or maybe if it was high school graduate school i had that thought once that there’s a high school graduate school it’s where you go to night class at your old high school for one more year and it’s about the extra things they didn’t have time to teach you in class like personal finances and home economics

    Nicholas Lawson

    like high school graduate school is cool school for everyone not going to college that graduated from high school and doesn’t have a job yet it’s that niche it’s like GED class for people with a high school diploma

    Nicholas Lawson

    like if you held FACEBOOK YOUTUBE REDDIT SPOTIFY WORDPRESS SUMMER CAMP AND MADE A MOVIE WITH THE KIDS LIKE DOCMENTED AND SHOWED IT AT SUNDANCE NAME IT SOMETHING LIKE MAX NET

    Nicholas Lawson

    maybe if you did it for a summer camp that you filmed this one time

    Nicholas Lawson

    if the internet was shared in high school you’d be banking on getting different results because you used different inputs like this technique is only to be used if you want different results than what you’re getting now emphasis on especially if you don’t care what the new results are just so long at the kids make through a day at school without asking any questions since it would be all they know

    Nicholas Lawson

    i’m old enough to apply my internet studies

    Nicholas Lawson

    a really progressive school would have facebook one bell and then youtube another bell and wordpress a third bell and at a point where it’s 3 websites a day and i don’t know how to teach facebook other than to discuss my wall as it comes up but you could have spotify class for music a seasoned teacher could dj the entire time i’m doing youtube if we stretched we could do reddit for a class and this is some woodstock shit right here this is the revolution at play

    Nicholas Lawson

    so if a day was wordpress facebook youtube spotify and reddit and the classes were 1 hour and 15 minutes each and the rest of the time was study hall if you did this for 4 years you’d have some original thought that’s grounded in classic study techniques like the kids would be casually original this is the opposite the teaching technique of the last 8 centuries it’s all randomness basically but structured so the kids can handle it and they might never get a job but they might be into start ups

    Nicholas Lawson

    or they can run a television studio at mcdonalds with their smart phone

    Nicholas Lawson

    youtube could take the place of gym at progressive high schools

    Nicholas Lawson

    youtube teacher is a hot ticket on the job difficulties involve avoiding repeating oneself and not knowing ahead of time what you’re going to play and bonus every spring the kids make their own youtube videos for a class project

    Nicholas Lawson

    i could put a playlist together for a substitute teacher

    Nicholas Lawson

    i could just show up program them and go home if i had that youtube class

    Nicholas Lawson

    i could shave my head and facial hair since it’s an attractive feature of me i could get a crew cut and go clean shaven

    Nicholas Lawson

    and a teacher might want to gain unsightly weight to become unsexy at school so that the kids are turned off by you

    Nicholas Lawson

    school is a place you want to suppress sexuality since it’s all horny youth

    Nicholas Lawson

    talking hijab in american high school just so i don’t have to look at them

    Nicholas Lawson

    i’ve been good with women i don’t need to be good with teenage girls and they have to wear their uniforms whatever it takes to avoid the sexuality they are made of

    Nicholas Lawson

    my heart is a little hesitant right now about becoming a teacher like that’s a big commitment even though my brother has a teaching degree my mom was a teacher and my dad was a professor i could slide into the teaching but i still want to struggle and search for money

    Nicholas Lawson

    they just need to write like 4 sentences a month

    Nicholas Lawson

    that’s 120 sentences a month i have to grade … like if grading is an issue assign small nuggets of work so that grading isn’t an issue and you’re graduating experts at wordpress who’se only purpose is to be written on and they have the rest of it for that or they’re just passerby that sampled the menu like so many others … i’m not trying to each one reach one teach one these kids i’m there to baby sit them and collect my paycheck

    Nicholas Lawson

    like i’m not these kids friend

    Nicholas Lawson

    they can address me as MISTER

    Nicholas Lawson

    maybe play some choice youtube videos i mostly teach the youtube class instead of gym

    Nicholas Lawson

    every kid doesn’t need a computer to learn word press i just need a projection screen to show the software on and i can quiz kids on the difference between a post and a page it’s a 3 month endeavor to teach 10 minutes worth of information and they’re masters at learning gui’s and then they get the wordpress app on their smart phones and i can assign them homework

    Nicholas Lawson

    mark you can teach at your kids school … my mom taught me most of 4th and 5th grade

    Nicholas Lawson

    like i can’t show up teaching english without having been paid to write i don’t need to teach and the struggle to get paid is too real i’d rather struggle and pursue getting paid to write than teach and get a guaranteed paycheck because it’s not the money it’s how i get it and under what conditions and i can’t teach unless i’m showing up like champion in full glory that’s just me though most people could probably teach

    Nicholas Lawson

    i could teach wordpress as a writing tool at a local school … not this year but next year i’ll look into english education i still need to achieve a status of received income for work done i need more socializing and there’s some professional things i need to do before i start programming the youth for a better tomorrow like a black kid might ask me how do i get paid with wordpress and i currently don’t have an answer

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    Nicholas Lawson

    just be a quietly angry middle aged man to the teenage girls

  • HARD WORK?!

    rely on your own hard work? that’s not this time period … the computer is too real … you can work with your hands in a restaurant or you can work with a computer in an office or you can go to school or you can get social security and if you get social security you’re not only poor but you’re poor and you have to figure out what to do with all your time and the only reason it’s a valid option is because we the internet now and it’s not too hard to type out of a missive to stave away the time glut … i have so much time on my hands i just take it all out on the internet in the hopes that something positive happens but if people responded to email you could say that hard work is a major tool in getting ahead i put a lot of hard work into writing emails that never get answered and it’s impossible for me to get ahead i have $0 so i’m on the receiving end of any deal and they can smell it and i’m sour grapes to them anyone i do business with has to pay me that’s the only way it works and it doesn’t matter what my service is because everyone knows i need money and i’m not an official LLC or C CORP or S CORP or 501c3 i’m a sole proprietorship and no one wants to deal with me so before margaret thatcher talks all high and mighty about how hard work is the ticket to a good living i put in work like this everyday five different times just to try to crack the code of email to get something started and i haven’t done anything but fail yet and all i do is put in hard work

  • BIG BUDGET FILM

    that’s not a bad set the fast food restaurant with the head scanning chairs where the kids playground usually goes and you can stop in an have a burger and live a life and go home … not a bad set for a film … i might be a local no one so i signed on to be a university graduate and that didn’t change my local no one status at the fast food restaurant that over sees the games

    like a computer laboratory at a fast food restaurant is what that inspired … if McDonalds or Taco Bell was in charge of a local computer laboratory if you didn’t have a dining room if you had a computer laboratory that ran software like Cinema 4D and Microsoft Word and you could get a Moutain Dew and 4 Chalupas and 2 Hours of Credit on the Machine for like $22 and we could take a 3rd place and make it a community spot Taco Bell is already a 3rd Place it’s not Work and it’s not Home but you got no reason to spend time there until you install the Computer Laboratory in the Fast Food Restaurant that’s the set for the big budget film if i was going to do a big budget film we would retro fit a taco bell to be outfitted with a computer laboratory an the menu would reflect a couple changes like COST PER HOUR OF CREATIVE STATION and COST PER HOUR OF ADMINISTRATIVE STATION the CREATIVE STATION WOULD COST $5 MORE PER HOUR but we’d film CLERKS at a TACO BELL with a COMPUTER LABORATORY IN THE RESTAURANT and jack has a pre rolled so it’s on an poppin

  • Education

    it’s more rockefeller than gatto in this one would we prefer our youth to run rampant for 12 years dodging all forms of education to present to the world adults with no formal training at all? would that be preferable? how long have their been schools? as long as civilization has existed? is the school the first sign of a civilization? at a point where a civilization knows to exist into perpetuity it must pass it’s ways on to the youth a school is not a new thing it’s not an invention it’s an organization of the will powers of men to discern a higher functioning society … school is there to educate the youth and teach them the basics for how to educate themselves the ones that go on to educate themselves become rulers and the ones that eschew the knowledge of school go on to be slaves … there’s going to be some slaves

  • Letter to Facebook

    I keep thinking about what facebook would be if mark had 2 more years of college in him and i think with the minimalism studies they would have presented to him it would have been something like you Register you Log In You Write Something You Hit Save and Now you have a website … that’s CMS territory that has nothing to do with index.html territory where i am comfortable but that’s a slick CMS REGISTER LOG IN TYPE SAVE SITE that’s pretty slick i even imagine the GUI is a text editor gui that saves true to form in real form as you save it … like it’s an IDE that’s What You See is What You Get the most basic WYSIWYG editor like explore the depths of WYSIWYG editors and you could have a Senior Year Thesis at Harvard under your belt with all the websites that have been built one of them has to be your senior thesis in web design i think it’s the WYSIWYG because Facebook is like a dirty version of one it sort of is but not really like you got locked into a train of thought and couldn’t offload it

  • state of writing

    now i want to be your lover lauren … hit me back and we can take this to a google doc where we can work on some writing together … that’s what i offer in digital relationship … a good writing partner … i’ll have to get about 5 pages fleshed out so there’s something to work with an i’m doing my part as the good writing partner … the bad writing partner would get this far and just offer to meet you in the google doc without doing any lead writing … just say the word and we can get a literary relationship started … i got stuck writing i could have been a painter but i’m baring the slings and arrows of this online … for the sake of the internet … you realize before this internet all i had to do was type up 150 sheets of paper of relative perfection and mail it off … i have to pen an encyclopdedia by myself get mocked by women and then turn around and have to try to sell my books to universities just to get a bulk order since the book store closed down … i need to know barnes and nobles sales department and they only work with trusted suppliers … this is ridiculous in the process i develop a fantastic rhetorical stream and the comedy continues everyday just to get paid to write and then the cincinnati magazin and cincy magazine ignore new writers and the enquirer and columbus dispatch the same …. they probably hook their boys up … starting something is the only thing i know how to do because then i can control the supply chain of my money

  • Music

    I am Cincinnati’s Poet Until I Am No More.
    I speak with my fingers on an alphabet
    Im the only poet in the game that can win a bet
    32 years strong not over yet
    What else you want to see me do
    Im a muffuckin graduate
    With a univeristy behind my rep
    11 years studying now bout time to collect my check
    Just have to grab this mic and build my set
    Build my gang and take this step
    My alma matta saved me from death
    Im a motherfucking college kid
    Yall dont know shit about college kid
    I come from a college town
    Where most folks is college bound
    And we be rocking that college sound
    If you looking for work we can split this bread
    Just give me a second to catch my breath
    Oh my god what just happened to me
    I guess this is what it sounds like
    When you are finally free
    When you finally decree
    When you finally believe
    That at any moment in your life
    You can decide to just be
    And find peace in the city of the big red machine
    Where our business is clean
    And we move slow because we peepin the scene
    Ya gotta understand what I mean
    When I say I am living in the city of Queens
    Where its time we came out supreme
    With a resoulution to make cream
    And you wouldnt believe how much I believe
    In the future of we becasue you dont know what I see
    In the only city that ever meant anything to my chi
    I wasnt raised on the streets so I perfectly perceive
    What a city can be because I trained for this moment
    And I know I can own it and show you how to transcend
    And bring back the glory days of this city my friend
    Funny thing about a city is that a city never ends
    We just grow forever and take over the world
    Oh my god what just happened to me
    I guess this is what it sounds like
    When you are finally free
    When you finally decree
    When you finally believe
    That at any moment in your life
    You can decide to just be
    And this shit fucking actually happend to me
    I been through shit you wouldnt believe
    But no one ever defeated my belief
    That I would get my degree
    Yeah I come from UC
    Where we bearcat proud
    And if you an alumni let me hear you get bearcat loud
    Becasue our city is now
    We was lost but now we is finally found
    Because you were so kind to me
    I tried to walk away but you invited me back to speak
    So I had to give it my all
    And show you how this poet can ball
    Because my poetry’s tall
    And I know the power of a city that sleeps
    And maybe this is our week
    To wake up and be known
    As more powerful than Dow Jones

    Becasue all I need is to make you proud
    Becasue you taught me how
    When you gave me inspiration to study
    You gave me the chance to write
    Now all I have to say is
    Cincinnati Ignite.
    Lace up Kells.
    See you at the Next Reds Indians game!

    CINCINNATI MOVIES! FILMED IN CINCINNATI!

  • Matrix and Eve

    if the MATRIX had an EVE theme so that they could fly a space ship and engage in space warfare

  • Holodeck

    Could I use WordPress and just write here. I’m paying for it. I can use the reader and master publishing on WordPress. Maybe browse Facebook but don’t do real writing there unless it’s called for. Maybe not maybe just work here. It’s something to have nothing to write and just press on that’s where the strategy comes in. Out thinking the nothing and still ending up human. Deserving to be human and out thinking the nothing. I could die and end up a fly. Just because I wanted to exist airborne for a spell. I hear you have to try to be human and some of these people don’t seem like they tried very hard. I wanted to write so it made me human all over again. A human playing the game such a thing. You already get to be human why would you be human in the game and the reason is to use the computer to use the game computer to work some things out be like using a desk top computer on the holodeck of the star ship enterprise it’s a hell of a computer.

  • What I Had to Say

    I’m 45 and in denial about my mental illness. 25 years ago they diagnosed me as bipolar type one and I have since gone on to graduate from University write 8 books and smoke weed. I have Vitae Magazine Blog and it’s where I make my pitch for my 7 books I wrote and have published and that’s my accomplishment. That and the 400,000 points of contact with the internet in more than 20 year I wrote a robust Bible in the comment section of the internet and it’s all been volunteer work. I got better at writing is all I can say about writing online. Someone thought of a way to make money off hard working honest people and I know i’m their product I just don’t know any more interesting past time than using a computer it’s compact it sits in the homei it’s got a typing interface that is attached to an alphabet that I can master.

    i wrote 8 books and one of them is about business plans. it’s the kind of book that’s designed to be inspiring like the book of money. it’s business moves you can make to get ahead it’s my accomplishment. my business move is selling books and I havent’ sold one of them yet and in fact I haven’t made the internet interesting enough to consider my work exciting. i’m a boring author that’ well behaved and on lithium. which makes me more well behaved. I used to be a stage poet in Cincinnati and that was an experience I did that for 15 years hitting stages every week to put on the weekly show of my couple poems I had a show poem for the open mic it was called SEARCHING FOR THE WORDS TO HEAL MY MIND and it was this whole piece coupled with LOVE IS SUCH A HARD WORD TO SPELLL those two poems got me through dozens of open mics when I wasn’t trying new material out.

    I was a young monument standing for youth and full of energy i’m not like that now the lithium has me tired and my age has me calmed down an really i’m no good anymore. i’m 10 years of College and I know the answer and no one will answer my emails I know I make the pitch and they buy the book and that’s how I get paid but no one is letting me do it Facebook is an entertaining ghost town. the television news never writes back. it’s occurred to me to give up on my computer but the telepathy needs me to use it the 5 or 6 people that talk to me everyday with my own mouth my mother does not believe me its of no importance to anyone it’s cheating and my psychiatrist can’t think of what it might be there is no drug for this I need a psychologist but I have $0 most of the time and my payee handles my bills and getting a dentist is impossible with my insurance like here at $0 it’s hard to find anyone that will talk to you like a good reason to make money is to be popular

  • Mental Health View

    my mental health picture that i can remember starts off in london england where upon smoking copious amount of hash one morning i leave my dorm room and walk naked after showing schizophrenic symptoms for a couple days blessing hallways and talking about world peace and i walk outside naked and the security gets me and they offer me jail or the mental health unit and i choose jail and they send me to mental health where i am for a month and a half before my dad comes and gets me and escorts me home so i scared the state department with that and it was the same mental health problem that i have now it’s just that now i edit it i sit on it i ignore it i play with it i laugh at it the same mental health issue i had in london i have now i just manage it better

    and then in 2007 i get a ride to new years eve in new york city from man from craigslist i hitchhiked and the same voices that i heard in london i heard in new york city but it was hella more intense and i told a police officer most of these people were going to die and i needed to get to the canary islands with zoe kirk gushowaty my former girlfriend and he said i got you and took me to mental health at saint lukes where i was admitted for 3 months and scared my parents because i was a missing person and two months later they called and i was found safe and my uncle brought me home

    then in 2010 i took a walk to xenia because the forces of god worked on me again had me take random buses until i randomly got off and started randomly walking and i found a trail and i started taking it and it led to xenia and i walked to xenia over two days and was a missing person again and my mother came and got me and took me home

    and then in 2016 i was dealing with god again and he needed me to leave my apartment and walk downtown where i was for a few days until i took a rest in a museum and the cops came and took me to mental health where i was for 3 months until i stayed in kemper house in walnut hills and then i tried to move in with a man in walnut hills but he turned violent so i turned myself into the homeless shelter and then i got in trouble there and had to go to the mental health for six months and then i was at montgomery house and then i was at my folks place and then i started taking lithium and haven’t had a problem in eight years since montgomery house and had an apartment and kept smoking weed and this last year is the first year i haven’t smoked weed in like 25 years and i’ve been alone in an apartment basically in solitary confinement and i’ve just worked but scary shit happened to me on the mental health front i was a missing person twice and i’m high risk with the mental health game what it is and i don’t know why such strange things happen to me i’ve lost all of my friends because those are three hospitalizations there were 10 others for various reasons like i was just heavily accosted and told to take medication i didn’t want to take and i eventually caved in and take the medication and all i can figure out is it’s for telepathy control the lithium helps control the telepathy that they won’t talk with me about no one is talking to me about telepathy and what it is or what it means or anything and i’m the one with the scurvy background that doesn’t make sense that my folks never abandoned me my dad never abandoned me i’m the one that never planned any of this shit it just happened because of god god did this to me god wrecked my mind so when you’re out there preaching the gospel of god just know god can do wicked things

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